" Time passes by, dont let it get by you." woahh. i havent updated xanga in the longest. big mistake! i will continue writing in xanga because i know in the future, when im older, i will read and remember these past memories. ok so i havent updated since like may. 6.5.07 was the day i started dating jaime cruz. his just amazing =] i fell in love with a great guy and i just cant summarize everything about him because it will be to much to say =]] summer of 07 was awesome. from hanging out with my girlies ( fabs, danielle, lucy, kattia ) <3 and my boyfriend <33 to chillen and having funn. it topped all summers. i was upset that i didnt go to italy but i enjoyed staying here with jaime. junior year started and its so overwhelming. taking 3 ap classes and 3 honors with 2 electives is a killer!! >=[ aghh! "You never know what you have, until you truly have lost it." currently...... things are hard =// i lost him. god just doesnt want to see me happy. thins did not work out . he said & did some hurtful things that i cant forgive him for them, well just not yet. i have been trying for the past 5 months [ 6.5.07 ] to make things work but this has truly broke me. yes other situations i let slip by but i knew that i couldnt keep on taking the pain i love him with all my heart and i just wish everythign works out for the bestt. hopefully he knows what he has lost. everyone has been telling me follow my heart, think smart, " theres no pressure" but ughh theres so muchh. one wrong or right decision will affect someone either they are happy with the result or end up hurt, i cant stand that fact of hurting other people ( especially the people i love ) what makes me upsett is that i cant stand the fact that he hurt me yet says to me " I Love You" . those 3 words just break me apart when i hear them from him because i know that i am not strong enough to hold my emotions =[[ i have no idea what will become of this. but for now i know, i need my own space & time. | 
